Hello there. Long time, no post. I am both appalled & embarrassed to realize that it has been 2 years since my last post. TWO YEARS. When I set my 2023 goals for the year, I gave myself an ultimatum: post something once a month or abandon ship. I nearly missed my own deadline for January…but thanks to last night’s winter storm, here I am. I think about writing all.the.time. So why am I not writing? I can blame really only one thing: my real-life job.
The hubs & I started a business over 22 years ago. It is an amazing business & God has truly blessed us & many others through this enterprise. I am entirely grateful for this entrepreneurial journey we have been on, lo, these many years. But the incessant pressure, grind, & stress have taken their toll. There is precious little left of me mentally when I get home each day…& my evenings are spent doing all the normal things one must do to keep a household going. An outsider may consider me burnt out. Toasted. I would concur.
But…not long ago I read a quote by John Maxwell that says this: “You’ll never change your life until you change something you do daily. The secret of your success is found in your daily routine.” I have been mulling this over quite seriously. I find myself pausing at work…pausing at home…wondering where my secret is. Is it possible for me to whip out some literary masterpiece even in the midst of the soul-sucking drain I feel nearly every single day? Is there space hiding within the mind-numbing routine of my workdays where my brain could change lanes, even for a few moments? I believe it may be worth the excavation…taking some time to dig into my daily planner, the inescapable realities of life, & my own heart.
A disclaimer here is paramount: please do not confuse the frustration of feeling thwarted in pursuing my deep-seated dream with being dissatisfied with my life at large. To the contrary…I am immensely blessed. I would go so far as to say I am living in near-fairy-tale conditions. With all truthfulness, I love my life. But the longing to chase chase this dream is strong. So chase, I will. Wish me luck. Until next time…
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